It’s funny how one comment can set you off.
And this is not even necessarily a diabetes comment…but of course for me, that’s what it all boils down to these days. The fact that certain people don’t understand our life now and they never will.
I made a comment on Facebook about being excited about taking our kids on a surprise spring break trip to Disneyland (for the first time we are staying on property at the Grand Californian) and taking our daughter to the American Girl store in L.A.
A ‘friend’ commented, “Gee, things must be good in the Drew household, because I could never afford to stay there!”
You know what? Let me tell you what goes on in the Drew household. We don’t sleep through the night. I am up ranting on my blog at 11pm on a school night because I made basal changes and have to check him again before I can 'safely' go to bed. We stick needles in our son 10 times a day and purposely make him bleed. We insert a catheter into his belly so he can get the life-saving insulin he needs. And sometimes I do it wrong. And his blood sugar goes to over 600, which could have led me sending my son to the ER in DKA because I DID IT WRONG.
Do you live with that in your house? Do you live with that kind of guilt and pressure to keep your kid alive? No, you are more worried about the stresses of the PTA and what you have to endure as room mom. Me? I can’t be room mom because Adam needs me to be his pancreas. So that means my daughter gets slighted. She gets slighted when she needs/wants/deserves attention but I have to tend to Adam’s needs first.
So you know what? We deserve that vacation. It’s none of your freaking business how we are paying for it. And to make a snarky comment like that just pisses me off. Some days I’m glad that I haven’t shared this blog with most of my day-to-day friends – just a chosen few read it…a trusted few. But sometimes I wish I could let everyone read this so they would GET IT.
I suppose I may regret publishing this rant later, but for now I’m posting it. I totally get that everyone has their own issues in life, and perhaps this friend has things going on in her life that I don’t know about. But this isn’t the first time she’s been insensitive and I just had to get it off my chest.